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ı want to beyours like a sunshine...

kimseye değil bana kim kim diye sormayın.kurbaa mı diye hiç sormayın sinirleniyorum artık,kime olduğunu ben biliyorum başkasınında bilmesine gerek yok..buarada bazılarınızın yorumlarını yayımlıyorum dikkat ettiğiniz gibi.Ama isimsiz olarak kim yorm bırakıyorsa ona gıcık olmaya başladım..kardeşim hem soru soruyorsun hem kim olduğunu söylemiyorsun yok öyleee

29 haziran

sil baştan başlamak gerek bazen.
hayatı sıfırlamak ....

sıfırlandı hayatım...anlatacak çok şey var aslında ama halim yok,gücüm yok..bugün zor bir gündü bir kere daha alışkın olmadığım sarsıntılar yaşadım,hem fiziksel hem ruhsal olarak..aslında son 5 gündür her gün zordu..anlatamayacak kadar yorgunum..

buarada garip mailler atıyorsunuz ,,,atmayın...

alkol...

26 haziran

iyi hissetmiyorum..canım yanıyor.bebekler gibi uyuduğum günleri çok özledim.en aksiyonlu filmin tek patlama sahnesini bile kaçırırdım huzurdan uyuklarken.şimdi son 18 saattır çalışıp -maç seyredip -alkol alıp hala ayakta kalarak işlerimi bitiriyorum.kendımı böyle sevmedımki hiç.son günlerde gelen kötü heberlere çok kulak asmasamda en sonuncuları benı benden aldı diğer boyuta taşıdı.hayatımı özlüyorum..basit sıradan hayatımı.yemek yapmayı özledim.birileri için birşeyler yapmayı özledim.ve ben bunları çok kısa sürede özledim..sanırım ayvayı yedım..bir kaç gün yazmak istemıyorum ..saklambaç oynayalım bakalım...1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-10-11-----önü arkam sağım solum saklamayan ebe........

25 haziran

Travis gelıyor yaa..sanki bizim eve gelıyor:( bu ne telaştır yaaaa.valla kendi üzüntümü yaşayamıyorum yahuuu.buarada birde Demir bebek doğdu ama üzgünüm hiç ilgi alanıma girmiyor valla..bu akşam Türkiye _Almanya maçı var.hedefim evde seyretmek ama deli gibi içmek istiyorummmm...çiğ köfte-ayran -karpuz yapınca uğurlu gelıyor..

25 haziran

ne yanı....şimdi olmayacakmı....dün geceden beri aklım ruhum yerınde değil..ben onlardan bir tane is-ti-yoruuuuuuuuum...burda açık ve seçik yazamıyorum ne hissettiğimi üzgünüm....kurbaaaa yaa birşey yapsana:(

24 haziran

yasakların gerçekyen yasak olduğunu anlamam gerekırdı.ama bu gece anladım.çok hafife aldığımı kendimi ve olanları anladım..keyfim kaçtı ..canım sıkıldı..bunun başıma yalnızken gelmiş olmasına daha çok canım sıkıldı..tek başıma anladım yasakları..ama şanslıyımki birşey olmadı..revizeye giriyorum canlar...

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